"Time has stopped, all that's left is to slowly grow old." This line is from the movie "So Long, My Son" directed by Wang Xiaoshuai. To be honest, I have forgotten when I watched this movie and I can't remember the specific details of the scenes, but whenever I sigh about how time flies, this line always comes to mind.
If I were to recall some of my life scenes from this time last year, I remember being in a period of confusion and awakening in my life, although I hadn't started learning front-end development at that time. I first came across Mirror, a product, in December 2021, and then learned about the concept of Web3 and technology selection, which slowly led me to start learning front-end development. At the same time, I spent most of 2022 in learning and coding.
Just a few days ago, I finished reading the classic book "JavaScript DOM Programming Art" in the front-end field, and I felt a lot of emotions. I bought this book when I was in my second year of college. At that time, mini-programs were just becoming popular, and there was a lot of hype online. One popular opinion was comparing mini-program applications to mobile apps and considering WeChat as another macro-level operating system. Of course, looking at the application ecology and development scenarios of mini-programs now, I can't help but think that those opinions were a bit ridiculous. But as an individual, whether or not I could see the future development trends at that time was not only determined by my individual business capabilities, but also relied more on the accumulation of experience and knowledge. It took me four or five years to finish reading a book, and it felt like time had suddenly stopped for me. This is truly a different landscape in the current era of "involution".
In the past year, I spent at least two hours every day studying programming. I first started learning programming in middle school when there was an information technology competition. I gave up after learning about loops and couldn't continue. It wasn't until my second year of college that I fully understood the execution flow of a for loop and was able to naturally incorporate loops into my program design. Although I have been studying computer science from undergraduate to graduate school, I used to look down on computers and thought that technology was just a cost issue that could be solved by paying someone else. So before this, I didn't invest much time in programming. In high school and college, I spent a lot of time on movies and TV shows. It's hard to imagine how I, who has become more restless now, had the leisure to lie down and watch long and obscure art films in the evenings and nights, thinking about the metaphors on the computer screen. These experiences once gave me a sense of confidence and made me feel like I could be a director or have the impulse to become one.
The change came this year when I started trying to build websites. When I broke down the website into different components like building blocks, wrote separate UI and logic interactions for each component, and finally integrated all the components to successfully build a new website, I experienced a joy and sense of accomplishment that I had never felt before. I felt like I had found a tool that could effectively express my ideas and desires, something I had been searching for - a tool that could satisfy my creative desires. I used to think it was directing, but now I believe it is coding. This has directly influenced me and changed my previous view that "technology is just a cost issue". For businesses, technology may be just a cost issue, but for individual developers, technology is a tool for creators to express themselves.
So when I found my passion, I have been coding persistently and happily throughout this year. 2022, a year that passed by so quickly, has been a year of great improvement in terms of technology. It's not just the mainstream utilitarian education that tells you to work hard and you will have a good job (although in reality, I currently don't have a job after the autumn recruitment:). More often, it is driven by a passion, determination, and purity from within, because I understand that everything I am doing now is meaningful. Learning is an accumulation process, and when the accumulation reaches a threshold, I will eventually be able to build my own product in the near future. I will have the ability to contribute to the open-source community and modify the framework source code that developers measure in tens of thousands of lines. I will ultimately tell the world that I have been here and have no regrets.
After going around in circles, I have finally returned to the path of coding. After finishing reading a book that I bought four or five years ago, I realized that if I had persisted a little longer, the situation might be different now. But if you ask me if I regret wasting time, what I think of is on the streets of Chongqing, she asked me if I loved her, and I put her hand in my pocket and reached towards my crotch to tell her my warmth.
No one is not wasting time, living is a kind of consumption. And I am still young, I will continue to burn myself in the ebb and flow of the future:
Burn myself.
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